why like this? :'(

hey smua,,
ktmu lg m gue d JN radio .

hm, gue gk tau apa yg gue lakuin smlam bner atw gak .
gue gk tau gmana cra untk hbur dy .
sestupid itukah gue, smpe2 gue gak bsa hbur stu orng aja?
sgala cra gue coba biar kta gk bhas ttg itu, tp ttep gak bsa .
GUE GATOT MENGHIBUR DIA .
stupid,, :'(
gmana sih, cra untk hbur dy?
slma d tlpn smlam, gue ngrasa asik sndri ngbrol .
dy kbnyakn diam yg buat gue ngrasa jdi KACANG GORENG yg bcra ma patung .
gue cba untk cairn keadaan, tp again and again gue GATOT .
knp gue gk pernh brhsil buat dy snang dn trhbur? sjahat apa sih gue?
gue mau mslahny rngan, gue rasa dg membaginy atw mncritaknny k orng lain bsa better .
gue nwarin diri untk jdi t4 dy crta, tp dy mlah blg ssuatu yg gue gk nyngka2 bkaln kluar dr mulutny .
knpa jadi runyam gni sih? apa gue tega bnget ma dy? :(
sbnarny dri awal gue gk mau crta k dy, tp gue gk mau dy tau dri orng lain .
gue gk mau dy mrah ke gue .
gue hny mau liat snyumnya .
God, gmana cra buat dy slalu trsnyum k gue? trsnyum bhagia, bkn trsnyum krna hny ingn mntpi unhappy nya .
gue pngn dy trbka k gue wlau dkit aja .
gue hny mau mnta 2 hal pntng dr dy, em dn em .
tp, bsakah gue dptn it? hopefully . T.T